Seriously, i miss him so damn much these few days.
i don't know why,
i felt something that is not so good will or has happened.
i keep thinking a lot a lot of things in my mind these two or three days night,
when he is not with me.
even me myself, is not clear about what im thinking now.
im afraid, im really afraid of losing him.
he is so busy these few days,
but im too free in these few days.
too much free time made me think a lot a lot and maybe too much.
never felt so afraid of losing someone before.
yea, he is the first and i hope is the only one.
these two months, we quarrel, and we broke up many times.
but at last, we get back together :)
because i know i dont want to, and i cant lose him anymore.
im sure, i treasure him, treasure our relationship so much.
i treasure every moment with him.
he made me smile, made me laugh, from deep inside my heart.
it had been long time, i didn laugh, i mean laugh 'truly'.
and now, i just want to stick with him as much as i can.
i still remember he hold my hand the first time, when he fetch me back that day,
im so damn nervous and shy and awkward maybe. ><
but now, i forget since when, automatically i will hold his hand when we are walking together, and when he is talking to me.
secure maybe. i felt secure when holding his hand,
like a kid holding daddy's hand.
and it made me feel like we both belongs to each other.
hmm, ya.
He is now so so important to me.
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| My teeth :3 the only photo that i showed my teeth and i like it xD He forced me to smile like this >< well, He is Hubert, my dearest babyy :) |
